Alive

From the first demo, 1993, and one of the songs from the very first gig at Lusserock in December 1992.

Sometimes when I'm thinking of what I have done,
I can't figure out why I'm still alive.
And when I'm thinking of what I have done,
the only right thing seems to be suicide.

'Cause I'm fucking crazy, my head blown out,
and I'm rather stupid, don't know left or right.

And I'm alive, I'm fucking alive,
I'm alive, I don't know why,
I'm alive, my life passing by,
but I'm alive.

Now I'm walking through a tunnel and I can't see no light,
but I keep on walking and I don't know why.
Many people told me that I might get lost,
I just told them not to worry, and I kept on walking.
'Cause I'm fucking lonely, I'm on my own,
and I keep on walking alone in the dark.

'Cause I'm alive, I'm fucking alive,
I'm alive, I don't know why,
I'm alive, my life passing by,
but I'm alive.

I don't wanna live, I don't wanna die,
I don't wanna smile, I don't wanna cry,
I don't wanna hate, I don't wanna fear,
I don't wanna move, I don't wanna breathe,
I don't wanna change, I just wanna be me.

But I'm alive, I'm fucking alive,
I'm alive, I don't know why,
I'm alive, my life passing by,
but I'm alive.
I'm alive, I'm alive, I'm alive...

Words and music: Ketebarbo and Andreas “Bimman” Chadien